Is there life over the Internet?
I had viewed the Internet as a media for communication, of course, it plays a big role in communication. However, with the anonimity of people, can we establish real relationships?
I am not talking of just an LDR (Long-Distance Relationship) between lovers, but also between 2 people who share interests or even find joys in each one’s differences.
For these past few months, I had experienced the “Virtual Life” as what I call it. I had been using LINE application.
I found “Life” online, but note: I am not making this as my primary life. Now when I say life, I mean that I found something more than what I had once perceived. Things I had not once thought would be possible. Meeting people online who I might not have had the chance to meet. People from different walks of life, profession, experiences, personalities and character. Their experiences, they’re overflowing! I had learned a lot from them, not just from their accounts of their experiences, but also what traits I had developed by interacting with them, lessons I learned myself, and the kind of personality I have that I was not aware of.
We are human beings, logical, rational, yet each laced with complexities.
In a short span of time, let’s say 5months, I had found new friends.
Well, to some people, friends are easily defined.
I am ordinary, probably just like you. I want to blend in among friends. People I get along easily and feel comfortable with. I have friends at work, because we share common interests at work. I have high school and college friends, because they were the people i hang out with in school. I have online friends for years too, people who had kept communication going though we are busy with our own lives. Those friends,…I called them friends because I felt comfortable with them. I call them friends and they call me friends. But that is not what I want.
A friend, in the truest sense, is someone very important. Someone who is close enough to be called family. Someone who I think is worth sacrificing my life for. Sounds crazy? Yes, indeed. You see, I have issues, to name a few: trust people easily, detachment and truth disclosure.
They are not negative traits, in fact, that’s what people want right? But I am talking of those things being done online.
A year ago, I thought that online relationship, is just….empty. Full of pretentions, clouded by anonimity and such. It’s difficult to find real things.
But now, I change that. Although it’s just online, I met real people. People I can share my darkest and deepest secrets with. Anonimity? It helps. We can share experiences without having disclosing our identities.
And probably the most unexpected thing happened.
To most people, it sounds childish of me or that it was just admiration or deep crush, etc.
But to me, it was love.
I fell inlove, got my heart broken, and still trying to mend things and stitch my heart in one piece. It was a rollercoaster ride!
And mind you, it was the first time I fell in love.
The Internet lead me to different experiences, taught me lessons, and brought out different emotions I’ve never felt.
So…. I will enjoy it while it lasts, treasure my experiences and memories.